9th house diary
spoiler alert: she's talking about God again
April 12, 2o22
I feel sorry for the people I alienate with my religiousness but I really don’t know how else to be. I think it would be interesting as a piece of media, for me, to go on some sort of talk show with a Catholic influencer and debate or discuss astrology. I would like to be more involved with the church first. I began reading St. Augustine’s City of God which he wrote from age 59 until his death. He was raised pagan— 495 AD [born]. His writing on astrology and denouncing it as pagan… I haven’t read. To me [western] astrology is Christian. It is of the Apollonian, the sky God, not the Dionysian, Chthonian pagan earth.It uses idealized forms. It’s of the mind. “This is how it should be.” I am writing this [redacted] and need to figure out how to make the zodiac meaningful in the southern hemisphere. Because astrology in the tropical zodiac relies on the positions of the sun and the day of the vernal equinox in the northern hemisphere. I guess they have a more internalized vision of the zodiac. I need to play up the polarities as being one, which is philosophically heavy. I guess it’s not a dichotomy, the opposition. The alignment reveals a unity. But the deliberate separation of sign from sign is something to be respected. I guess I need to have the meanings of the signs emphasized by the sun’s aspect to each of them. And in the southern hemisphere the thema mundi still applies. I really have been thinking about…
Jesus (lamb of god, the ram) ☍ Death
life ☍ suffering
self ☍ ego
➠ God created nature.
➠ Astrology is man’s observation of natural phenomenon.
➠ Astrology observes God.
➠ Man’s observations are imperfect, poisoned by ego or inspired by God.
➠ Astrology predates Christ.
➠ Christ emerged after the fall to save mankind from violence, greed, corruption.
➠ The Church created social order and law, which banned astrology.
➠ Heretical evil has been done in Christ’s name, and continues to be.
➠ The second coming of Christ is a “Christ” consciousness which exists beyond creed, and is universal in that it is love.
➠ Astrology can bring us closer to God.
although it can go either way, really
i was living in the Garden District in 2009 when i decided to go to CIIS for an MA in Philosphy, Cosmology, and Consciousness.
i think you should delve into the uniqueness of your identy and not try to be all things to all people. specialize as you.
i always refer to God in my readings. i can’t make sense of astrology or the world otherwise. there’s a fallacy that secular humanism or atheism or even agnosticism is somehow a neutral perspective while theism is biased or prejudiced. they’re all prejudiced so you should accept and use it.
Jesus came as the scapegoat, the lamb to be slain for all humanity.
♀body exalted in ♓︎
in Revelation he comes as a ram 1st/♈︎.
☉ king exalted in ♈︎.
Revelation 1:14-16 NLT
 His head and his hair were white like wool, as white as snow. And his eyes were like flames of fire.  His feet were like polished bronze refined in a furnace, and his voice thundered like mighty ocean waves.  He held seven stars in his right hand, and a sharp two-edged sword came from his mouth. And his face was like the sun in all its brilliance.
i feel like both 🜃 pagan wisdom and 🜁 intellectual wisdom (astrology) are fallen from 🜂 spiritual wisdom.
1 Corinthians 3:18-20 NLT
 Stop deceiving yourselves. If you think you are wise by this world's standards, you need to become a fool to be truly wise.  For the wisdom of this world is foolishness to God. As the Scriptures say, "He traps the wise in the snare of their own cleverness."  And again, “The LORD knows the thoughts of the wise; he knows they are worthless.”